Self Sabotage Revisted

Seriously? Again? What is WRONG with me? Pure laziness. That's my only reason/excuse for what I do to myself. And the thought of "Can't have it" with the larger come back of "Try and stop me". Old fashioned rebellion maybe? *SIGH*

So, ya, that's where I am today. Two days ago I was all pumped up and ready to take on a month of "perfection". Perhaps that's my undoing. I promise myself I'm going to do something and then bam...do the complete opposite. LOL nothing like self sabotage. Left over pizza, dinner out with the hubby, that was all it took to put me back into the downward spiral. Even after I journaled and set up a new system for myself!!! And not one of those long drawn out complicated ones either! Went and checked out the local gym...which btw I decided against for a multitude of reasons: I've done it alone before and I can do it again, it's way too expensive, it's dated and a little dirty, I don't really think I'd use it enough for it to pay for itself AND the final reason...at $50 a month, in less than a year I could use that money to buy my own weight machine and have it forever. I already have the elliptical...it's not like they can offer me that much more than what I can do at home. (see mom, I can make good financial decisions on my own!!! LOL)

Pray for me, my friends. That I can make this my last promise to myself. That I can find the will power to out last my laziness, my temptations, my self sabotage.

Can the year of Becky finally begin? We shall see. We shall see.